Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Give Up

Life has been crazy lately and not just for Ry and me. I feel like everyone around me is going through some tough stuff. It is so hard not to get caught up in the chaos of this life. I have been sick for about a month and it is kicking my butt. It started out just having trouble hearing but it got worse and worse. Finally I went to the doctor and found out I had a 90% blockage. They had to suction out my ear twice. Then he ran a test on my ears and my ear drums are not opening and closing properly. He said I was very lucky not to have an infection and that if my ears continued to do what they are doing I would probably develop one. He gave me medicine to try to help the inflammation go away but my ears and now my throat are still bothering me. And that is only the start of the craziness going on right now. I won't get into the other stuff right now though. (Oh but we did get good news. We passed our home inspection :) I know as you are reading this you are probably thinking about some problem you are dealing with right now. If you are like me it may even be causing you anxiety. God has really been working on me concerning that though. I have had a great friend remind me not to be so focused on the here and now. Worrying about what is going on doesn't help it. It just makes me miserable and I miss out on what God is trying to tell me. This is going to sound completely off topic but in class I've been teaching the kids about Jacob during Bible time. I was telling them the story about  how Jacob and God wrestled. That God wanted Jacob to give in and the trust him. Jacob wouldn't give up though so God had to move Jacob's hip to get him to give in. I think we can be that way sometimes. I know I can. God will tell me over and over again to give it up and trust Him, but I don't want to give up. On Sunday when I was praying I said, "Okay God. I give up." My situations didn't change during that service but I did. I finally felt peace and joy. I still feel miserable with my health and don't know how certain things are going to work out, but I am okay with it. I know God knows and that is enough for me. So I just want to encourage you guys not to be like me and fight with God. Give it up to Him and feel the peace and joy only He can bring.

Chandelle says to smile :)