So it has been a rough week. Last weekend I started feeling sick. My fever got up to 102.5. So I went to the doctor and after doing a bunch of tests he diagnosed my with pneumonia. Yuck. I got probably the worst shot I have ever gotten. Ryan said he could barely watch them give it to me. Plus I've been on medicine to try to clear the gunk out of my lungs. It has not been a fun week. I didn't get to go to work and I miss the kiddos and my coworkers. Also, I was supposed to start on Wednesday. I'm on day 34 of my cycle, so hopefully I will start soon.
Now that you are updated on my physical condition, I wanted to share about strength. It amazes me how many people tell me how strong I am after I share with them some of what I am going through. My husband has even mentioned it in the last week or two. I've been home alone a lot this week and in between watching daytime tv and taking naps I thought about whether I am strong or not. One of my friends about a year ago after praying over me told me that I am a lion, but that I don't see myself that way. She told me to stop holding back. That was a shock to me. But now as I am writing this and contemplating my strength maybe there is some of that lion in me. Whether I am strong or not though is not really the point. The point is where my strength comes from and that is not me. My strength comes from the Lord. David says that over and over in the Psalms. Samson who is considered one of the strongest men in history learned the tough way that his strength came from God. I don't think anyone can be strong outside the power that God gives them to do so. Strength comes from relying on God.
One of my favorite songs is In Christ Alone. We sing it at church and the band rocks. I cannot sing that song without crying and feeling the presence of Christ. Owl City does a great version of it along with several other artist. If you have not heard it I recommend you youtube it. Below are the lyrics. As you read them remind yourself that you are strong, because God gives you that strength. God is with you wherever you are at whether you are dealing with infertility like me or some other trial of life. May God grant you the power to believe and trust In Christ Alone.
"In Christ Alone"