Saturday, February 12, 2011

Day 56

Wow I can't believe I've been writing for almost two months. Time has flown by. I'll start by giving a health update. I am almost over the pneumonia. I was back at work this week which I was super happy about. Tuesday next week (Feb. 15th) I am getting my wisdom teeth out. That is long overdue and I am hoping it will help me feel a lot better once I have healed from the surgery. Also, at the end of this month we might have an idea of what Ryan's flying future may look like. I can't give too many details yet, but please be praying for him.

All that to say February has already been a crazy month. I am late again. I haven't done a pregnancy test yet. We are kind of just waiting it out right now. I am on day 39 on my cycle. I am getting a little anxious, but we have spent so much money on pregnancy tests over the last year and a half that I do not want to waste any more money.

I read a devotional from my Bible this week that I wanted to share with you guys. It is from the Hugs Bible for Women.

"God promises that all things are possible with Him, and He promises to work good things in the lives of those who trust Him. Count yourself among that number today and every day of your life. When you put your faith in God, you avail yourself of His power and His peace. And when you take God at His word- when you believe that absolutely nothing is impossible for Him- you'll be amazed at the things He can do. Today, as you fulfill the responsibilities of everyday life, expect God to do big things for you and yours. Trust that the Creator of the universe is capable of moving any mountain, including the ones looming ahead of you. And don't ever be afraid to ask for a miracle... because God is a miracle working God."

I sometimes find myself selling God short. I say, "well God that is too much for me to ask for, so if you could just do this then it will be okay." Why am I scared to ask for the miracle I really want? I ask for my cycle to be regulated when I am really hoping that He will miraculously fix my hormones and give me a baby. No more. I am going to ask and believe that He will give me the miracle child I want so badly.