Day 39

Hi everybody. Let me start this post with a disclaimer. I am not feeling well today. I woke up with my first cold of the year that in combination with needing to get my wisdom teeth out has made me feel terrible. So if this post is incoherent, I apologize.

I babysat for one of my best friends on Monday. She has an infant and it was the first time in years that I had babysat a child that young. The infant was well behaved, but I had forgotten how much work taking care of an infant is. She wanted my attention the whole time I was there. Something as simple as eating dinner became a complicated task. So to all the moms out there, you are awesome. Even though is was more work than I thought I came away from that experience with two thoughts. The first is that I am thankful God didn't give us a child when we first started trying because having a baby and finishing up classes would have been harder than I anticipated. Once again, to all the moms out there who are finishing up degrees, you ladies are amazing. My second thought though was one of sadness. Even though I know it is not easy, I still really want to be a mom.