Update

So I went to my regular doctor Thursday. He diagnosed me with a UTI and most likely an ovarian cyst. He strongly recommended I see my gynecologist. So I broke down and went yesterday. When I told the receptionist who scheduled the appointment, nurse, and doctor that my last period was January 5 I got mostly the same reaction. A look or a tone of confusion. 80 days without a period and you are just coming in now. They didn't pry to find out why but I could tell they were wondering. They did an ultrasound and I most likely had a cyst that had burst. The pain was from that and the UTI. She also wants to do a blood serum pregnancy test in 2 weeks and if it is negative put me on Provera or the pill. I really do not want to do either of the 2 options. She said you should go past 3 months without a period. So I do not know what to do. Please pray that I just start on my own or that maybe I miraculously am pregnant. I am really tired of this. I know that testing of my faith makes me stronger and that I have to trust God's plan, but those things are much easier said than done. Right now I am weak. I am in pain and tired all the time. I want to stay on God's path for me.

Sanctus Real is one of my favorite bands. I've posted their lyrics before. 2 songs that have really been playing in my mind when I get upset about this crazy situation are These Things Take Time and The Way the World Turns. God has a purpose for all of this and I need to focus on Him. Below is a link to the song. I have to realize I may not understand the why but I have to keep trusting.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TFitfYRQ_RE